It's been 8 days since I've left, and it feels somehow much longer than that. Maybe because practically everyday has been a busy one or because I've acquired huge amounts of information. I should be leaving here around 5a.m., and be trying to hop the border before the line gets 2 hours long. I still can't say whether this is going to be full-time for 6 months or so, but I have been speaking with some people who have helped me gain clarity about what I really want to do with the time God gave me.
I really want to go to seminary and study the Bible. I enjoy piecing apart the Word of God for others and studying things that will help me gain insight into that. The problem was that I have dealing with is, is it better to earn money while I can so I can pay off the bills later? Now, if someone is thinking about going to medical school, and decides to get minimum wage jobs to save up for the education and pay it off before hand, then most people will think this person has lost his mind and is prolonging what he wants to do for no good reason. And if he takes out loans to get the education, then ok - he'll make it back at the end of the day with a high paying job.
However, this is not my case. I am potentially being offered an even higher paid job now, for something I wouldn't mind doing, or I could go into debt and pay it off with a low paying job afterwards. This is the price of the clergy, this is the price for being a minister. This is also something I could enjoy doing a lot more than law enforcement... At the end of the day though, I have to realize that the thing holding me back from doing what I want to do is money... Maybe I should just trust taht God gave me the desires of my heart, and trust that He will provide, or maybe I need to be a good steward of His money - it's all His anyways?
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Hi mark!! heeyy put me on your blogs of note too!
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